The style of this dream was so raw and gritty it was amazing. it was like dreaming in a comic book. enjoy the twisted story my subconscious has placed before us.
The background was a dirty muddy watercolor of rusty colors and washes. Strong broken wire like outlines. Gritty splatters in the background. There was an old grumpy man who kept telling me I couldn't do things. He was very small, like the size of a child's stuffed toy. looked poisoned with anger. His skin was sick and wrinkled. The clothes he wore were like a smelly wounded homeless mans. He kept coming at me and laughing in my face with his smoke stained teeth. I finally decided I didn't need to take it anymore! So I picked him up and threw him down on a table top at what seemed to be a putrid bar scene. I smashed his body down like a rag doll several times. He continued to taunt me. My rage grew stronger. His face and small body lay broken. He looked at me and said u my child are nothing more than...before he could finish I threw him into the fireplace and watched him quickly vanish into a melting ash. Feeling scared and worried I would be arrested I told no one. I turn to see two people asleep tossing and turning in a booth. Laying there was a beautiful women...her face covered in dirty black smudges from all her hard work. A slight smile comes across her face. Behind her wedged between this woman's back and the booth was a child. A little girl...she must be lily. She looked like lily. I tuck them in and kiss the child. I say in a sad but sure tone, I must go now....
ENTERS PHONE RING!
I truly believe this dream was about me destroying my doubts and fears. This was intense.
I was the woman who destroyed the evil. The rebel, the warrior! I was also the woman who was asleep with the baby. A hard working beauty. Sometimes I struggle with my feelings of being a good mom and still feeling like a beautiful women and a strong lady.
This is an older painting (the unfinished photo) that has the feeling of the crazy anger and sickness that was in this dream...but not the style
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maybe I will try some sketches and watercolors in this style.
