Deep Breath!

So this morning has been one of the days you cry with the baby!
She is so upset.
All last night she would wake up every few min and just cry so hard and so sadly!
It was like someone was going in there and pinching her.

So I had to move her to our bed to try and get some sleep my self. Still even in our bed she kept waking up. I couldn't figure it out.

not the point so I will move on.

Point: hard sleepless night and tough morning.

Later on after hours and hours of crying again for breakfast I get her to sleep.
So with tears drying up for the both of us and me feeling like I want to jump off a tiny hill I choose to try and list some items for my Etsy shop.

Knowing I don't ever have time to list during the weekend (which is really way better for getting eyes to see them) I sit down and start.
I try my loved photoshop print of the San Francisco Houses!

IT WOULDN'T LOAD THE IMAGE!
So deep breath worried she could wake at any moment I hurry to start and try to fix it.
Maybe the image is to big? Do I need to crop it? What is wrong?
I stumble through my clicks and keys to try and figure it out.

I try again...STILL WON'T LOAD!
okay so I choose to hurry up again still on pins and needles (is she going to wake up!)
I try another listing with a totally new photo to load.
IT WON'T LOAD EITHER!

So I turn to you all...My friends and family and maybe a few fans,
Venting was much needed and facebook just wouldn't do it for me this time.
SIGH...
Thanks for hearing me out.

Either way plenty of fun new prints are coming soon to my Etsy shop just for all of you!
They are printed on a high quality and amazingly fun paper that has canvas texture to it. So even though it's a print from a canvas it will still look and feel like canvas!

Wish Me Luck!

Phone Photo Shoot

So with all the crazy apps you can get on your phone for free these days...who needs a nice camera!
I can't help my self with these fun pictures I took of Lily's/My old stuffed animals.
There is something amazing about the textures and the look in there silent eyes. Will this grow into a project for me?

This is just some of the photo's I took on my phone!

The big panda with the blue background is my childhood love!

I just adore the textures that came out on this. It is a Polandroid app.

This one is my favorite though:

                                                                  It just looks so neat!

 

This is really just Lily's trashcan! It's a tiger lid.

This is of my painting with the colors changed.

I loved this too!

This is Lily's backpack:

And...Well this is what I did to it with this other app!

Action comic book lines I guess is what they were going for.

Either way I really like it.

Anyways just wanted to share my silly photo's with you.

Try some strange shots with your phone! Get really close, try different lighting, and just have fun!

Who knows what you could come up with!

Copyright -All these photo's are mine and I have the right to them please don't steal

Love Your Family

So everyone always talks about us torched artists. It's true most of the time...we go through so much that we either need to express the dark or build something beautiful.
Saying that I have been really down lately.

But the honest truth is we are all human and we all have tough times. I think we forget that everyone at some point in their life has going through something traumatic even if to you it seems small or not so bad.
Everyone has their own limits to pain.

This is a door from my dad's house

I took a nap with my little one today and had a dream that was hard for me.

Because of my dad's suicide I am sensitive to seeing him in my dreams. When he first past away I had a dream about him but only could see his hands. I woke upset that I didn't see his face or get to say anything to him...there was a fence in the way.
This time was so intense I woke with tears streaming down my face before I could even realize why.

I was visiting some place...it seemed like a prison or something. I had lily in my arms. I heard my dad was there. I was told we were to late to see him everyone was inside talking to people. There was a large thick piece of glass between the people on one side. I saw him from a far and held up Lily high in the air for him to see...there was to many people in the way. I ran pushing through people till I reached him. I held up Lily to the glass and he (for some reason) Held up a little black baby boy. Then I pushed even closer till we were right up next to the glass. There was a little slot that he could put his hand in. I placed Lily's foot into the slot...He touched her foot (tears are pouring out of my face as I write this) They see each other eye to eye and he rubs her little foot so softly.
At this point I physically wake up for a split second for some reason and I see Lily asleep right in front of me and she has a huge smile on her face!! (more tears)
I hurry and close my eyes to fall back asleep!!!

I see him there and he is looking right at me. His hand is almost to big for the slot...he struggles to get it in the slot turning it up and down...finally I reach my hand in and we touch fingers. (deep breath) I tell him "I am not mad at you!" he looks worried or like he feels bad...he keeps trying to give me candy. It's in a small bag. He says, "It's made with REAL lemon!" I insist he needs it because he is in there. He then looks at me and says strongly, "LOOK AT ALL YOU KNOW" .............. then I wake up from a phone call.

The Road to my dad's place...We all have a path to walk.

SIGH ...what does it mean!

Well I think that it is him trying to tell me that he is proud of how much I have grown and how hard I am trying to become someone.

Anyways...I miss him SO MUCH... it was nice to see him and hear him after 9 years.
And I am really happy he got to meet Lily!

Thanks for listening.
To cheer you all up after that crazy dream I will share a video I watched this morning with Lily right after the dream... YO GABBA GABBA!
Gotta love THE ROOTS!

Have a loving day!